huh...

so night already,but i still don't sleep...
i have long time didn't go bed as late as this time...
i'm so blur now...
because i have drank a lot jz now v friends at my home...
but i still don't sleep,but i have think so much now...

i'm so worry about future to myself,i scare i cant hit my target in future...
i'm so worry to my college life,i scare i cant handle it...i scare i will give up it....
i cant get the answer why i always i failed that,am i really did it not enough??or i really is so bad one??hate myslef can put down it at all...huh...even though i have known that...
i feel lonely recently because all my friends have started to their own new life,so we seldom contact already...i also have to get my new life too....
i feel so disappointed and worry to my family too,especially 'him'!!damn him!!!and i wanna start my college life,i scare i will increase my dad's pressure...
i really damn damn feel tired about to think my future,always wan to plan next step to me...huh...i want a relax...

although last few day ago i got a gathering with my old classmates...
and we have so happy and crazy that day...i so enjoy that day...but i scare we cant meet it anymore...because all have started busy already...huh...

huh....i'm feel so pressure la...
really feel so pressure n tired when i am growing...
so miss my secondly school life,especially form 5,happened so many thing at that year...so miss>.<...

hmm...is ok la...
i'm ok la,just think too much after drank only...
really damn late le...have to sleep le...
good night....